Hi everyone. I'm just stopping in to say how much I miss this blog. I've had so many posts in my head that I never have the time to actually write. And I do censor what I write on CaringBridge (link posted on the right side bar)... because if I'm too real, it starts a telephone/email panic chain between friends of my parents, to my parents, to me and everyone is freaking out. So it's easier to be clinical on CaringBridge than to be real. That sucks, but the audience is too broad, so that's just how it is.
I know I can be real here... I just don't have the luxury of time to write out my feelings as they are happening. Especially since going back to work. This is where I would rather be writing, but it benefits me to write for the majority on CaringBridge right now, keeping everyone informed, and keeping my space here quiet/secret.
I'm reading your blogs still, but rarely commenting. And almost never commenting if you have captcha (hate that impossible to read thing)... please accept my apologies. My world is very self centered right now and unfortunately I have to be that way for Ella.
Please don't give up on me here... I promise, my intentions are to come back whenever life returns to some form of 'new' normalcy. Thank you!
Ella is 4 months old today!