Yesterday I made an appointment to talk to the DE coordinator at my RE office, along with the Finance coordinator. The appointment is April 8th. For me, this is just initial information, not a decision.
WTF Appointment Planning
My WTF appointment with Dr. T is on April 13. I have questions in my head and I need to start writing them down. Here are a few... just to get them written down:
- What happened this time?
- The embryos were moving into the Morela stage on Day 3 at transfer, given this is there really possibly a problem with the quality of my eggs (embryos)?
- If we were to do IVF again (using my own eggs), what would we do differently? How can we get more of my own eggs?
I have questionably had two brief chemical pregnancies (IUI #6 and IVF #2), meaning a positive HPT (not a trigger false positive), then negative HPT and negative Betas...
- How do we know the problem is not with my uterus, an inability to support implantation/growth?
- What testing can we do to feel confident the problem is not with my uterus, especially if I decide to use donor eggs $$$?
While I love Dr. T I do think it's time to get an opinion from someone else. It doesn't have to be someone local... so I actually have no clue who to schedule a second opinion with... I've not done much research on this topic.
This is when I wish I had someone to share the burden with, someone to tell me where to go, what to do... or just to have someone as invested in this as I am to talk through it with.
It's going to be a crazy week, heading out West Monday for a packed schedule of work meetings and "team building" events... I am NOT looking forward to the socializing with people I barely know as the questions: Are you married? Do you have kids? are always asked (over and over given there will be 50 or so collegues around over the course of the week). I really had hoped I would be trying to schedule my first ultrasound around my travel schedule...
Any ideas on clever responses (that are also politically correct, given these are business contacts)? My new response (to those who know my IF struggles) is that I gave this company my best fertile years. Probably not the best response when talking with casual acquaintances.
I get home Thursday night and get back on a plane Friday to head to see the family in Florida, for a mini reunion. I'm looking forward to seeing my family and catching up with a couple of friends. Then back home Monday afternoon.
My dogs are sitting on either side of me at this moment but I miss them already... I hate leaving them for a week!
I decided against the 'extreme' diet due to all of the unknown implications to my TTC efforts. I really just wanted to see fast results based on my efforts, given I've not seen results from all of my TTC efforts over the last year. But instead I signed up for Weight Watchers.
Slow & Steady Wins the Race, right? If it doesn't, then I know my heart will never recover...
(I searched Google Images for a Broken Heart image... my favorite actually came from SIF's blog.)