I'm not the kind of infertile woman that gets upset when hearing another woman's news about getting pregnant. Announcements on Facebook do not send me into a tailspin and I believe I am truly happy for my friends who do get pregnant and have babies. I actually love hearing about what they are going through and seeing their pictures.
Some may think I don't have the bitterness of an infertile because I've "only" been TTC for 6 (now 7) cycles, six perfectly timed, doctor assisted cycles. The only reason I've been TTC such a "short" amount of time (although seemingly a lifetime) is because I waited so, so, so many years to find the right man to TTC with... I have spent plenty of Mothers Day's blinking back tears, hiding sadness from my family over Thanksgiving and Christmas, wanting a family of my own.
And as I said before, after years of thinking, in 2009 I was ready to TTC SMC style. Unfortunately, a layoff for the first (and hopefully last) time in my life impacted my financial and emotional ability to move forward with those plans.
Finally, this past Spring, things were back in place (enough) to move forward with TTC. But I digress from the purpose of this post...
I am truly happy for my fellow pregnant and mommy bloggers, many who got their BFP's in my last cycle! It gives me hope and I enjoy reading their stories, how they evolve from trying to being pregnant, preparing to be a mommy. I dream of the day I'll have my BFP and healthy pregnancy, moving from "trying" to "being" a mommy. I can't wait to share the news with my extended family and make my own Facebook announcement! And I know when it's my turn, others in our TTC & infertile circle will be genuinely happy for me!
So what does bother me? The Duggars ("19 Kids and Counting"). I do get jealous (or a bit angry) when people continue to procreate just because they can. 19 kids... and maybe more? Is that responsible parenting? I can't answer that but it sure kicks an infertile in her reproductively challenged ovaries!!!
This statement from a spot on the Today Show really irritates me: "the Duggars vowed to put their faith in God and have as many children as they could be blessed with".
That rubs me especially raw today due to Paige's recent condemnation by her preacher. I find his words so completely irresponsible and utterly disturbing. I've not been able to get this out of my head since reading her post last night. He not only condemned SMC's but all infertiles!!! I wonder how many IVF babies he has baptized and never known how they were conceived (because there were two parents)? I can only imagine he would welcome a family into his church like the Duggars as Saints.
I am so disappointed that Paige had to experience this and simply don't have the right words to express what I want to about it. However I am so proud of how Paige handled the situation, with true class and dignity. And as terrible as his words were, I am so comforted with the amount support she has received from the community.