Friday, July 22, 2011

Detox Cycle

So the long-shot, hail Mary IUI (83 injections worth) was a bust.  While my beta date was not scheduled until next Tuesday, July 26 (why 16dpiui, I don't know), I started spotting Wednesday afternoon and AF arrived today (CD30).  Yes, I was supplementing with progesterone.  Actually, for whatever reason, it was prometrium  this cycle, rather than progesterone.

So this cycle is to be a detox from the super-hormones.  I estimate my next cycle will start around August 18... and I'll head to CC.RM between CD 5 - 11 of that cycle for their ODWU (one day work up, aka - a full day of testing).  At BEST, I would start stimming for my next IVF mid-September.  And since the PGD requires freezing my embryos and uterus preparation, I'll be lucky to have a FET by the end of the year.

Sadly, I'll turn 40 childless, not pregnant, single and overweight.  Not exactly how I envisioned hitting 40... but I can take control of the things I can control.

Since I have, in a sense, a break for the rest of the year (although I'm not getting any younger)... I'm formulating a plan to work on my health (fitness) and maybe get some resemblance of my life back.  The life I've put on hold for far too long.  I'm working on the plan and starting to take action.  I'll share more once I'm farther along.

You may not hear much from my blog for a little while.  I'm not gone, but I am on a break.  I appreciate all of your ongoing support.  I expect I'll continue reading but forgive me if I'm not commenting much.  I'm going to try to extract myself from the SMC, TTC, IF world as much as I can during this time.  My goal is to exchange my TTC/IF OCD for Health & Fitness OCD...  Until next time, I wish each of you the best!!!

20 comments:

  1. Good luck and good for you in taking a break and focusing on yourself. I do hope you keep us updated on your ODWU at CCRM!

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  2. ...and so sorry your most recent IUI didn't work.

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  3. i am sorry that your iui didn't work, but i totally get the needing a break. take as long as you need to be happy with you!

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  4. Sorry for the bad news.

    I'm glad you have a plan moving forward. Getting your life back to normal is important. Take care of yourself.

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  5. Sorry to hear the IUI didn't work. I think your Detox plan is wise and healthy. Good for you! I look forward to catching up with you when you've had some time to take care of yourself before getting back on the TTC journey.

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  6. I am so sorry the IUI didn't work. I know that at the end of your journey you will be a Mom, and an amazing one at that.

    I am in Denver, we didn't use CCRM but I have heard lots of really great things about them. If you need anything while you are in town, please let me know.

    I think that taking care of yourself and focusing on your health will be just what you needed to turn the corner towards the life that you want and deserve.

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  7. I am So Sad to read this post. Life has been Extremely unfair to you. I quite understand that you are going to want to change your focus for the next while. I am sure we will all be sending prayers your way.

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  8. Damn. I'm so sorry. I was really hoping you'd be the odds. I did two IVF-to-IUI cycles, even though I knew going into them that statistically they were even less likey to work than a regular IUI (something about the stim process). I think your detox/fitness plan sounds like a great one. And I'll certainly be here reading whenever you return from your hiatus. Wishing you well.

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  9. I completely understand the need to pull back. I do hope you will let us know how you are doing occasionally though. It still seems funny to me, someone who always thought the internet was just for checking email until last summer, how many wonderful friends I have gained from the experience. Take care of yourself and while turning 40 isn't always what we expect, it's not that bad either.

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  10. I'm really sorry this IUI didn't work for you. :(

    Although we'll all miss you during your break, it sounds like it's what you need. I hope you come back refreshed, mentally and physically. Take care.

    *hugs*

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  11. So sorry yr cycle didn't work. Hope this break works out for you though and remember, life begins at 40 (I'm not far behind you!). Good luck x

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  12. I'm sorry your IUI cycle did not work... I'm rooting for you and will be here reading your blog when you return. Take good care of yourself.
    Hugs.

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  13. So sorry to hear this cycle was a bust.
    Good for you for taking care of yourself!
    Will be here when you return.

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  14. I am so sorry that this cycle didn't work. I can relate to the turning 40 and not being where you want to be. And also to wanting to step back or out. It's hard. I am glad you have a plan for the future and I hope this break is just what you need.

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  15. I'm really sorry all those injections didn't lead to a BFP. But if you're going to have to take time off, at least you're doing it with a great plan. I hope you are able to get yourself detoxed and centered again before your FET at the new clinic.

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  16. I'm sorry you're recent IUI wasn't successful. Take care during your break. Take care of you.

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  17. Damn damn damn. So sorry to hear about your IUI. Taking control of what you can control (health, fitness, etc) is a great plan. We're all here for you and can't wait until you're back :)

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  18. "Sadly, I'll turn 40 childless, not pregnant, single and overweight. Not exactly how I envisioned hitting 40... " I'm in exactly the same boat. Sigh. But good on ya for taking a break and becoming healthier. That can only bring good things.

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  19. I'm so sorry. Taking a break is so necessary from time to time- I hope you find your emotional and physical health and come back ready to take the next step. Wishing you the best.

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  20. I so wish this cycle would have worked for you. Sounds like a healthy choice to take a break and detox, focus on fitness etc. CCRM does such great things from what I hear, so I'm glad you have that on the not so distant horizon. Sending supportive thoughts.

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