Sunday, June 19, 2011

Moving on to IVF3.0

I'm amazed that I have to write those words...  I never imagined that I would be the kind of person who would do IVF after IVF (but then again, I wasn't planning to be infertile).  Now, I'm going into IVF3.0 with a plan for IVF4.0...

I had bloodwork last week that confirmed that my CA125 dropped to 27.7 (from 34.3) after nearly 2 full cycles of BCP & Letrozol (my last day for the second full cycle of BCP is tomorrow).  As I've mentioned before, while it's controversial as to the use of the CA125 test to 'diagnose' Endometriosis, since I made the decision to go with Dr. T for IVF3.0, I'm going with it.  Dr. T wanted the level to drop under 30, which it has... this means I do not have to do the dreaded 3rd cycle of BCP/Letrozol and can begin stimming for IVF3.0 next week.

So assuming this is the first time in my 14 months TTC that I have a possible diagnosis, the treatment used is deemed effective (the level dropped), hence possibly giving me my first really good chance at conceiving.

However I do not expect that I'm going to be excited and optimistic, I just don't feel like I have it in me.  I don't have the heart to listen to my meditations.  It's all I can do just to give up the wine, caffeine and artificial sweeteners (diet coke) without some kind of guarantee.  But I know all too well, there are no guarantees.


I do appreciate knowing that you all will carry hope for me, when I am not able to do so for myself.

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For now, the meds are ordered.  The schedule is set, but always tentative, of course (and it's quite tight in order to finish just BEFORE my friends visit in mid-July).    My July 4th plans are cancelled to be home for monitoring.

So for IVF3.0... I'm going to try to list (at least) one thing that I'm thankful for during each blog post.  Today, I am thankful that my last BCP will be tomorrow (and that I do not have to do a 3rd cycle of BCP).  Good riddance birth control pills!

15 comments:

  1. I will be here to carry some of the hope for you. You will be in my thoughts in the coming weeks! Congrats on the last day of BCP, hopefully the last day forever.

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  2. BB, I will be here also to carry some hope for you. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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  3. Ditto to what Nell and createdfamily said.

    Sending you lots of good thoughts...

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  4. Feeling a ton of hope and excitement for you!!!!

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  5. Holding the hope flag high for you! "They" must say "3rd time is the charm" for some good reason!

    Will be cheering for you!

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  6. So glad to read that you are moving forward with optimism and tenacity!

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  7. We will definitely help carry you through this cycle with lots of hope and optimism. Try to dig deep, BB - find that bit of hope and hold on tight!

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  8. I know exactly what you mean when you say you cannot carry hope for yourself... But yes we are all here to hope for you and cheer you on :)

    You are a resourceful, brave person... You WILL make this happen, one day, I have no doubt of that!

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  9. Good riddance BCP!! (bloody contraceptive pills). I am very excited for you starting again :)

    For me, the only thing worse than the fear of failing, is the knowledge that I am not trying. This cycle is different, so I hope the end result will be too.

    I am a huge believer in meditation for stress management (and positive psychology influencing physiological states...but that sounds kind of flakey!), so maybe revisit your meditations when you start stimming?

    I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you hon xx

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  10. Bye, bye BCPs!! I have everything crossed for you!!

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  11. Sending good vibes to you!
    ~Amy

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  12. I, too, am carrying hope for you. Glad you don't have to do the BCP anymore. Lots of positive thoughts coming your way!

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  13. We'll be thinking of you and sending you all good thoughts!

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