I'm not an overly religious person. When I was a teenager I was a leader in youth group and very spiritual. I've tried to keep touch with my faith and spirituality in my adult years but it's been difficult, admittedly I've lost touch. When we are young it is so easy to believe and have hope... before life gets in the way...
Recently SIF mentioned something about wanting to get back to church. I want the same... but know I'm so hormonal (aka emotional) now that going to church could easily mean "breakdown" (aka making a spectacle of myself).
I was visiting my parents this weekend and although my dad came down with a virus/cold, mom and I went to church this morning. There were three different points in the service that I had to make myself think of FOOTBALL (anything to get my mind off the subject at church) because I started to choke up/tear up.
One of those moments was during a hymn... I had to stop singing and think of the Gator game yesterday (sad loss)... it was the Hymn of Promise. Here are the lyrics that got to me (google the whole song for all lyrics)...
In the cold and snow of winter there’s a spring that waits to be.
There’s a dawn in every darkness, bringing hope to you and me.
From the past will come the future; what it holds, a mystery.
From the past will come the future; what it holds, a mystery.
In our end is our beginning; in our time, infinity;
In our doubt there is believing
In our doubt there is believing
Unrevealed until its season, something God alone can see.
I totally relate to your feelings on faith. I'm supposed to take comfort in my faith but so often I have my fist up, shaking it towards the heavens, asking why? -- my faith no where to be found.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing these beautiful lyrics. I needed the reminder.
Beautiful lyrics! They speak so much truth! I find myself getting choked up at my church, too, but I don't think of football to stop the tears from swelling. ;) Too funny!
ReplyDeleteOh the worship portion of church always gets me the worst... no doubt about it!
ReplyDeleteI'm kind of glad you went though... one step at a time friend!
After my grandma died, I cried at church every time I went for over a year. Eventually pretty much stopped going. Thinking about football is a good strategy. I need to get back too. Beautiful hymmn.
ReplyDeleteWhen I went through a breakup in my last relationship where I had really been counting on the guy to be "the one" and was hoping for marriage and kids with him, I went back to synagogue for awhile. It did me a lot of good. I'm not religious at all, but that process caused me to discover a whole new spiritual side to myself which has been really helpful to me with the thinking and hopefully soon ttc'ing.
ReplyDeleteHang in there.
What a beautiful lyrics. I have to constantly remind myself to be hopeful and good things will come my way.
ReplyDeleteGreat lyrics. A little faith does help, doesn't it.
ReplyDeleteI don't believe I could have survived these past months without Faith. I don't have Faith in how I want things to turn out - I have Faith in knowing that God will take care of me. In the end, things will be just as He planned. There are days I wonder just how much pain one can endure - but I take solace in the fact that I can give it all to God. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteLove the Lyrics. Hope and faith carried me through many a challenging time.
ReplyDeleteThose lyrics are amazing.
ReplyDeleteI hear you on going back to church. I keep saying I'm going to, but I can't seem to actually make it - fear of breakdowns is part of the reluctance!
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